kau macam aku tak?

dulu, bila aku ber-(atau TER) mimpikan sorang kawan aku ni, he will end up calling me the next day. magic right? now i know you are going to say that it was just a coincidence. but it happened a few times. really. and we're not the type of person who correspond regularly. he would be MIA for months and HELLO, he showed up just when i dreamt of him.

it's not a fluke, guys. I'm telling you it's real.

mesti benda ni pernah terjadi kat kau. you have a sudden urge to call somebody and 5 minutes later THEY call you. GILA KAN? it's like your feeling reaches them. macam tau tau je. one time aku pernah nak call my mom. baru je pegang phone tetiba phone berbunyi. it was her. i was like, terkezut la kan. ibu ni macam boleh baca je fikiran aku.

moving on to my problem. i have a dream last night about a guy. and now suddenly i have this crazy impulse to contact him. which i shouldn't, or couldn't because it is...er....crazy. crazy as in 'it'll be embarrassing if you do it' crazy. or crazy as in 'why now? why him?


BECAUSE.....


my dream was about him becoming my boyfriend. so help me god, because it felt so damn real.



p/s: my habit is that, if i like a guy, i would convince myself otherwise. like telling myself that he's too good for me. or not good enough. he deserve better. or I deserve better. or maybe stuff like he's cute but he's too thin. he's too young, too old or whatever-i-can-think-of. anything to get me to neutralize my feelings.

I'm guessing it's the after-effect of a bad break-up. or Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. or whatever you call it. i feel that if I'm going to suffer another break-up, my heart wouldn't be able to take it.

now that's my answer if you ask me why i still don't have a boyfriend (despite being old and getting older. and fatter. if that even related. haha).

falling in love (with a song)

가사:
Maybe I, maybe I've made a mistake of loving you
But if I, but if I could fly to you. I would.
널 기다리는 하루하루, 마치 일년 같아
너를 향한 나의 맘은 너의 마음과 똑같아
때론 다른 여자 만나 널 불안하게 하지만
걱정마 나에겐 너 하나 뿐이니까
너에 곁에 없어 지금은 안아줄수 없지만
늘 달콤한 말로만 너의 귀에 속삭일께
사랑 가득 담긴 입맞춤을 그대에게 바칠께
나의 품에 너를 안고 항상 너를 지켜줄께
But if I, like butterflies, could fly away
Just you and I, then nothing would ever be the matter



Translation for the rap part:

Each day I wait for you, feels like an year
My feelings for you, they are just the same as yours
Sometimes I meet some other girl and make you nervous
But don't ever worry cause you are the only one for me
I can not hold you right now since I'm not by your side
But I'll always whisper the sweetest words in your ears
I'll give you kisses full of love
I'll hold you in my arms and always take care of you



composed by Sooyoon of Royal Pirates. he's the drummer btw. i know, shocking right?. i just found out that he has his own channel in YouTube, HERE. my oh my. you knocked my socks off.





Well, if you were to be my girl,
Um, I could wait for you in the rain
With no umbrellas in my hands
I could just wait
I don't care if this is not the right time
'Cause I can't hide how I feel inside anymore
I've been waiting for you
And with this moment you'll be mine
I'll get you with my

One hundred roses
I caught you out of one hundred million ladies
I don't wanna be like any other guys out there
I wish I was special to you
My love Be my baby
I'll never let you slip away

Then I'll wave my hand with a smile on my face
When I see you miles away from me blushing
Oh how cute
You look so much more beautiful than my

I've never thought that I could be
Ridiculously in love with you
I just cant get you out of my head
My love, be my baby
I'll never let you slip away






WHAT A CUTE SONG...

benci (2)

benda yang paling aku benci bila blog-hopping ialah blog yang letak lagu secara autoplay. sakit jiwa aku dibuatnya. i like to read in peace and quiet. just as i like to write in peace and quiet.

at the very least, tolonglah letaknya di atas. senang saya nak cari and stop-kan dia. sekian terima kasih.

BENCI

1) budak mengaji. oh tidak, mengaji itukan bagus. budak-budak itu saja yang aku tidak suka. satu, memekak. worst, berlari-lari dalam rumah dan memekak. dua, mencarut. worst, berlari-lari dalam rumah sambil memekak dan mencarut. i don't want my kid sister to pick up the words from them. ketiga, makanan kami jadi makanan mereka. giler frustrated bila saja aku nak makan anggur itu sekali je sudah lesap. dan aku perati mereka tanpa segan silu bukak tudung saji tengok apa makanan ada. Grrr...damn kids!

2) kuku ibu jari kaki aku hampir terkopek akibat tendang bola. tangan gatal je nak mencabut. tak tahan godaan. stop main bola sepak seketika. kaki sebelah lagi pun sakit. padan muka sape suruh main tak pakai kasut.

3) lampu bilik dari 4 tinggal 2. satu berkelip-kelip macam kunang-kunang sebesar burung, satu dah kiok. bilalah nak tukar ni. sangat tak tenteram dengan bilik yang separa cerah, separa malap. macam senja.

4) trying to lose weight tapi selera luar biasa sampai gajah pun i rasa boleh telan. boleh begitu? pretty soon nobody will recognize me anymore. NOOoooo!

5) need new shoes badly tapi cerewet sampai sanggup tak beli. biarlah i setia dengan sandal rm10 itu sampai i jumpa apa yang berkenan di hati.

6) still having difficulties to sleep disebabkan katak durjana itu. and sometimes, lipas and labah-labah. macam zoo pulak.

7) bila hujan streamyx akan acting up. which is weird sebab bukaknkah streamyx itu wired bukan wireless. hujan tak sepatutnya menyebabkan anda gagal membuat connection bukan? this is not Astro. i repeat, NOT ASTRO.

Happy Birthday, Isti.

On your birthday,
I’m thinking about how much light and sparkle
you freely dispense wherever you go,
how your sunny smile lights up any gathering.
Every birthday marks another year
of you radiating positive, happy energy,
contagious happiness
that infects all who come in contact with you.
May your next birthday find you the same--
glowing from within,
beaming bright joy on everyone you meet.
I feel blessed to know you.
By Joanna Fuchs

p/s: terima kasih Joanna Fuchs, your poem's perfect for my dearest Isti.

Royal Pirates, be a fan like me.

i have no qualm with those bands who did covers to jump-start their careers. it's the fast and easy way to get known...err...fast. but my favorite would be the ones who did it with style, like this band of which i accidentally, stumbled, upon my search on Super Junior on YouTube.

it's Royal Pirates. and while some of their covers are sort of imperfect (don't ask me why, i couldn't give you the answer even if i want to), some caught my ears for being different but oh so good. something different from the original may be hard to swallow, so you said. but the end of the day, it depends on your taste-bud. and my taste-bud is super loving Royal Pirates.

my top of the top favorite would be Circus - Britney Spears (now you wonder), Sorry sorry -Super Junior and Tell Me Your Wish - SNSD.



Royal Pirates MySpace
Royal Pirates YouTube
Royal Pirates Facebook



just to give you a taste

Loving It

ada satu malam tu aku duduk mengulang lagu ni sambil main sudoku. mannyak syiook aa..



pssst, click here for some laugh. man i just love parody. oh dah tengok geli mat? that's one hell of a sub. tergolek-golek den menengoknye..